been such a long time since i posted something ! sigh. life sucks. or perhaps, my life sucks ahahah. maybe i’m just too stressed and depressed. kinda don’t want to do anything, kinda want to do everything. so sick of overthinking things sigh but i can’t help it. tired of people taking advantage of my trust, making me feel so insecure and shit. and definitely tired of feeling lonely but not being alone. is there even such a thing as ataraxy nowadays. things are so chaotic with all the drama and shit, it’s exhausting. mentally and physically. i just want to end it all. all of it. or perhaps, all of me.