i don’t even know anymore sigh. i just feel really guilty and apologetic. it’s all my fault omf. i’m really dumb. tsk. why did i push everyone away again. why did i push you away when you meant so much to me. i really deserve this now heh. i don’t want to but i had to do what i did. but i guessed i crossed the line this time. it was probably too much for you. and i guess i hurt your feelings. and i’m really sorry but i really don’t know what else to do now. i just hope you don’t leave like they did. i promise i’d try my best to be better.